Well,
I am sad to say that I have abandoned my post for much too long. I have went up and down in the weight game and I am still finding it a process to stick to a diet and complete my goals. The last that I was here I was starting a boot camp and trying to have a new attitude for this year when it came to weight loss. And frankly my attitude is still there but it is fighting with something in me that is afraid to conquer my fears of being healthier. There must be a subconscious part of me that does not want to succeed. However, i am done with that crap. I really want to be better.
So, I survived the boot camp and lost a few inches... I forget the exact number but I know it was somewhere around 11 all over. That was great but then paying for more boot camps became less of an option because I was bogged down with other things to take care of and acting jobs that asked me for money so I lost some money and gained some weight.
I grew ashamed because i have never been small. I have forever been the way that I am now. Though I am the average size of most real women... I am trying to compete in a n industry that praises girls that are size 2 and 4. Well, honey, I can tell you right now that I will never be a size 4. However, I can be a size that I am proud of. It lies between my current size 14 and size 8. So, here I am again chronicling my pain and triumphs.
Also, I am going back to the East Coast for a wedding in a month and I will not be skinny but I do want to at least be a breath of fresh air when I get there. I want people to say, "ROBYN... I barely recognized you. You look great girl!"
Please join me.... don't give up! We are still in the beginning half of the year and there is no reason to throw in the towel. Believe in yourself!!
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