This has been an interesting week. Full of surprises, proud moments, disappointments, and anxiety. As much as I have enjoyed living in California I still want to just go back to the East Coast (Atlanta, to be specific!!) and enjoy my former luxuries. It seemed like I had more money and more people to enjoy my time with. But now I just have a lot of time, no money, not as many friends, and sadly not as much ambition... : (
But in the same breath I must realize that nothing in this life worth living for comes easy. If I were in Atlanta right now I would be happy but I would wonder what it would be like to be in L.A. pursuing my acting career. I love entertaining.... it is what I was born to do outside of being in love, loving others, and becoming a mother. I am sure that there are plenty of other things that I have to look forward to discovering in my lifetime... but the truth is I have not auditioned in months. I have all these desires but I stand in my own way. I want to be successful but having money to take care of the essentials is important too and right now I can't do that and it saddens me. I can barely make ends meet. I know that I am blessed and that I have way more things to be happy for than to be upset about but it is a trying battle sometimes. How do I pursue my goals if I can barely take care of myself? When and how will I find my way?
This diet has been a mini journey that I hope will take me on another journey... to something bigger and better. But I wonder what are those bigger and better things ahead of me.... I guess only time will tell...
Until next time... keep striving for higher goals. You will find your way and so will I
R
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