Hello world,
I have been absent for quite some time. What is it with me and long absences...lol! Anyhoo, I am back on the blog world spreading the message of longer and sustained health. as well, I am all about people finding their true path to happiness. So, since the last time I posted I jumped headfirst into P90X and gave it 85%. I only give that percentage because I would go and give it my all. However, I was eating pizza and fried chicken... not all the time but enough that I was offsetting my potential progress. I may have lost 5 pounds... yeah... just 5 after 90 days... [sigh].
So I put that to the side for awhile to get to the root of the issue. I knew that a diet was not the proper road to travel for me. It is short, rocky, scary, and I usually get very lost. thSo while feeling down I saw a commercial for Weight Watchers with Jennifer Hudson on it looking HOT!! She was always beautiful and curvy but her transformation left me in awe. After carefl thought I decided to take the bravest step I have ever taken. I walked into Weight Watchers ready to face the music. I stepped onto the scale holding my breath and saw a number that did not make me happy. However, I owned up to 216. I made it a mission to never see that number again. That fist weigh-in was on February 17 and now, on June 29, I weigh in at 197. It has taken longer than I wanted but it was natural and thre were times I slipped up but I am still going at it. I will continue to push forward until I reach my weight loss goal of 80 pounds. So I hope you take the journey with me again!!
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
Friday, November 19, 2010
Starting Over... Again...
Well, its the season for giving and sharing. It's the season for grubbing and indulging. It is also the season for shopping. People, somehow, leave out that this is also the season for gaining weight. All those days off... it's cold outside... Cozier to stay near the heater.... blah, blah, blah. Well, I am going to truly attempt to go against the grain. I will begin my P90X regimen next Monday. I want to come out of winter ready to jump into a bikini!!
Now let's be clear.... I will be enjoying mac n cheese, collard greens, rolls, etc. I am not saying that I will not enjoy the good stuff... just in moderation. So since this will be over the course of 90 days I will have to keep you updated. I am thinking about posting pics every two weeks until the end so be prepared for something damn good to come out of this.... I am!
Now let's be clear.... I will be enjoying mac n cheese, collard greens, rolls, etc. I am not saying that I will not enjoy the good stuff... just in moderation. So since this will be over the course of 90 days I will have to keep you updated. I am thinking about posting pics every two weeks until the end so be prepared for something damn good to come out of this.... I am!
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
If at first (or second and third) you don't succeed... try, try again!
Hello world,
I am sad to say that this girl just can not stay on the upside of fat. I mean I try and do great and then fall back into bad habits and then I am back where I started. I am so tired of this endless race I run in life. I am not sure what it will take for me to finally make my vision a reality. I was doing well on the HcG diet. I lost about 20 pounds. Then I went to Atlanta for a few days to visit and put about 10 of those pounds back on. I was fooling myself by skipping steps of that diet and I am still regretting it. I am, however, looking forward to doing it again and hopefully getting lasting results. since I last jumped on here things have changed quite a bit. I got a beautiful little puppy named Oreo (he's amazingly and deliciously cute as a button)!! I moved to a one bedroom apartment with a more functional kitchen that I plan on cooking in... SCORE!! But I have been steeped in stress and full of shoulda coulda wouldas. I need to go on a cleanse so that I can reset my body and begin to clear out the yucky stuff. BTW, did I tell you all that I am visiting Maryland for the first time in almost two years. I was hoping to be a knockout by the time I got there but I am so sure that will not happen for me. I am, however, still looking forward to looking as fantastic as I possibly can.
Lately, I have been trying to focus on what I am certain is holding me back and that is self-worth... or lack thereof. I have put my desires of being an upgrade of my current self to the side for much too long. I want to so many wonderful things to happen but I find it hard to push through and continue to fight for my dream when it comes to body images. I thought about plastic surgery and was still told that I should lose 20 pounds to start!! So, here I am, baring my soul to the world once again and hoping that I can finally pull all my inner strength together to do what is right for me.
THough I am not sure what exactly I will do to get to my goal... I have to do something because it is imperative to my health. So here we go again....
I am sad to say that this girl just can not stay on the upside of fat. I mean I try and do great and then fall back into bad habits and then I am back where I started. I am so tired of this endless race I run in life. I am not sure what it will take for me to finally make my vision a reality. I was doing well on the HcG diet. I lost about 20 pounds. Then I went to Atlanta for a few days to visit and put about 10 of those pounds back on. I was fooling myself by skipping steps of that diet and I am still regretting it. I am, however, looking forward to doing it again and hopefully getting lasting results. since I last jumped on here things have changed quite a bit. I got a beautiful little puppy named Oreo (he's amazingly and deliciously cute as a button)!! I moved to a one bedroom apartment with a more functional kitchen that I plan on cooking in... SCORE!! But I have been steeped in stress and full of shoulda coulda wouldas. I need to go on a cleanse so that I can reset my body and begin to clear out the yucky stuff. BTW, did I tell you all that I am visiting Maryland for the first time in almost two years. I was hoping to be a knockout by the time I got there but I am so sure that will not happen for me. I am, however, still looking forward to looking as fantastic as I possibly can.
Lately, I have been trying to focus on what I am certain is holding me back and that is self-worth... or lack thereof. I have put my desires of being an upgrade of my current self to the side for much too long. I want to so many wonderful things to happen but I find it hard to push through and continue to fight for my dream when it comes to body images. I thought about plastic surgery and was still told that I should lose 20 pounds to start!! So, here I am, baring my soul to the world once again and hoping that I can finally pull all my inner strength together to do what is right for me.
THough I am not sure what exactly I will do to get to my goal... I have to do something because it is imperative to my health. So here we go again....
Friday, April 30, 2010
Hello world...
Hello blogworld!
I have been on a continuous quest to lose weight. I just want to drop my excess baggage (fat) off somewhere and run far away screaming with my arms flailing in the wind. So, since that really could not possibly happen I have found a better solution. Eating a limited diet and focusing on what is going to make me better!
So I began a new diet on April 14 and it has been a miracle. I have lost 14 pounds in 16 days!! How crazy is that (very crazy...I know)!? Well it is all thanks to HcG Diet. I have been taking HcG Drops and eating a very low calorie diet. Although it calls for a lot of sacrifice... it has been worth it. I am learning the valuable lesson of self-control and knowing when you are overindulging. I am looking forward to using the guidelines to take me to a better place where I can fit into clothes that make me smile (CHEESE!!) Most of all I want to be able to look at myself and feel like my body matches what I feel inside. A woman that is sexy, confident, and ready to face the world. Although it is ultimately up to me to reach inside myself and find my inner beauty... damnit, I want to fit into a size 8! I will be ending this diet May 14 so stay tuned for late breaking (pounds) news!!
I have been on a continuous quest to lose weight. I just want to drop my excess baggage (fat) off somewhere and run far away screaming with my arms flailing in the wind. So, since that really could not possibly happen I have found a better solution. Eating a limited diet and focusing on what is going to make me better!
So I began a new diet on April 14 and it has been a miracle. I have lost 14 pounds in 16 days!! How crazy is that (very crazy...I know)!? Well it is all thanks to HcG Diet. I have been taking HcG Drops and eating a very low calorie diet. Although it calls for a lot of sacrifice... it has been worth it. I am learning the valuable lesson of self-control and knowing when you are overindulging. I am looking forward to using the guidelines to take me to a better place where I can fit into clothes that make me smile (CHEESE!!) Most of all I want to be able to look at myself and feel like my body matches what I feel inside. A woman that is sexy, confident, and ready to face the world. Although it is ultimately up to me to reach inside myself and find my inner beauty... damnit, I want to fit into a size 8! I will be ending this diet May 14 so stay tuned for late breaking (pounds) news!!
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
It's Been A While Since I've Been Here!
Well,
I am sad to say that I have abandoned my post for much too long. I have went up and down in the weight game and I am still finding it a process to stick to a diet and complete my goals. The last that I was here I was starting a boot camp and trying to have a new attitude for this year when it came to weight loss. And frankly my attitude is still there but it is fighting with something in me that is afraid to conquer my fears of being healthier. There must be a subconscious part of me that does not want to succeed. However, i am done with that crap. I really want to be better.
So, I survived the boot camp and lost a few inches... I forget the exact number but I know it was somewhere around 11 all over. That was great but then paying for more boot camps became less of an option because I was bogged down with other things to take care of and acting jobs that asked me for money so I lost some money and gained some weight.
I grew ashamed because i have never been small. I have forever been the way that I am now. Though I am the average size of most real women... I am trying to compete in a n industry that praises girls that are size 2 and 4. Well, honey, I can tell you right now that I will never be a size 4. However, I can be a size that I am proud of. It lies between my current size 14 and size 8. So, here I am again chronicling my pain and triumphs.
Also, I am going back to the East Coast for a wedding in a month and I will not be skinny but I do want to at least be a breath of fresh air when I get there. I want people to say, "ROBYN... I barely recognized you. You look great girl!"
Please join me.... don't give up! We are still in the beginning half of the year and there is no reason to throw in the towel. Believe in yourself!!
I am sad to say that I have abandoned my post for much too long. I have went up and down in the weight game and I am still finding it a process to stick to a diet and complete my goals. The last that I was here I was starting a boot camp and trying to have a new attitude for this year when it came to weight loss. And frankly my attitude is still there but it is fighting with something in me that is afraid to conquer my fears of being healthier. There must be a subconscious part of me that does not want to succeed. However, i am done with that crap. I really want to be better.
So, I survived the boot camp and lost a few inches... I forget the exact number but I know it was somewhere around 11 all over. That was great but then paying for more boot camps became less of an option because I was bogged down with other things to take care of and acting jobs that asked me for money so I lost some money and gained some weight.
I grew ashamed because i have never been small. I have forever been the way that I am now. Though I am the average size of most real women... I am trying to compete in a n industry that praises girls that are size 2 and 4. Well, honey, I can tell you right now that I will never be a size 4. However, I can be a size that I am proud of. It lies between my current size 14 and size 8. So, here I am again chronicling my pain and triumphs.
Also, I am going back to the East Coast for a wedding in a month and I will not be skinny but I do want to at least be a breath of fresh air when I get there. I want people to say, "ROBYN... I barely recognized you. You look great girl!"
Please join me.... don't give up! We are still in the beginning half of the year and there is no reason to throw in the towel. Believe in yourself!!
Friday, January 15, 2010
This boot camp is kicking my butt!!
Hello again BlogWorld,
This is Robyn... signing in to tell you that this week of boot camp has been brutal. Running up steep hills has left my chest heaving with cold and soreness. It has left my lungs wheezing as they expand and adjust. My hunger has shot through the roof. I am turning into a melting popsicle at work because I do not always have the opportunity to feed myself because I am so busy making sure others have what they need. My body is going through something that it has never experienced before. It is being challenged in ways that scare me and exhilarate me. I am going to thrive and grow and cry and wheeze and become something new. I have two more weeks and I am praying that I have the strength to survive it.
So, people out there, will I live? will I survive?
Pray for me...
P.S. This week has had its share of ups and downs but nothing compares to the devastation of those in Haiti. My prayers are with them and for those still lost....hold on. Someone is coming for you.
This is Robyn... signing in to tell you that this week of boot camp has been brutal. Running up steep hills has left my chest heaving with cold and soreness. It has left my lungs wheezing as they expand and adjust. My hunger has shot through the roof. I am turning into a melting popsicle at work because I do not always have the opportunity to feed myself because I am so busy making sure others have what they need. My body is going through something that it has never experienced before. It is being challenged in ways that scare me and exhilarate me. I am going to thrive and grow and cry and wheeze and become something new. I have two more weeks and I am praying that I have the strength to survive it.
So, people out there, will I live? will I survive?
Pray for me...
P.S. This week has had its share of ups and downs but nothing compares to the devastation of those in Haiti. My prayers are with them and for those still lost....hold on. Someone is coming for you.
Monday, January 11, 2010
Grocery Shopping and some other stuff
Hello All,
Today is a new day!! Amen! This week is going to be a fantastic week. I just FEEL it!! I went to my first boot camp class today! I did this boot camp late 2008 and I decided to come back and challenge myself. I feel like a switch has been flipped and that I am ready to go FAR on my fitness journey. I know it will be a difficult but I am ready to feel the burn!!
I went grocery shopping last night and I felt extremely empowered. It is getting up and cooking the food that is the true challenge. After coming home from working at a restaurant it is so much easier to just bring a pizza or pasta home that will feed my boyfriend and I. However, I have learned that this will no longer work for me. First of all, I have a boyfriend that can eat ANYTHING and still look amazing. I tried to keep up with him and I gained about 20 pounds over the past year. So, I understand now that I have to take it one day at a time.
And, ladies and gentleman, I will be signing up for my first marathon by the end of the month. The marathon will happen in June and I am really hoping that I will do well. I plan on doing a walk/run. 26.2 miles is no joke!! However, anything is possible if you put your mind to it and really focus.
Anyhoo, I have to be off to work so enjoy your day and embrace life because it is something wonderful. Smile with joy in your heart and be the best you can be.
Signing off,
Robyn
P.S. Wish me luck on an audition I have tonight...
Today is a new day!! Amen! This week is going to be a fantastic week. I just FEEL it!! I went to my first boot camp class today! I did this boot camp late 2008 and I decided to come back and challenge myself. I feel like a switch has been flipped and that I am ready to go FAR on my fitness journey. I know it will be a difficult but I am ready to feel the burn!!
I went grocery shopping last night and I felt extremely empowered. It is getting up and cooking the food that is the true challenge. After coming home from working at a restaurant it is so much easier to just bring a pizza or pasta home that will feed my boyfriend and I. However, I have learned that this will no longer work for me. First of all, I have a boyfriend that can eat ANYTHING and still look amazing. I tried to keep up with him and I gained about 20 pounds over the past year. So, I understand now that I have to take it one day at a time.
And, ladies and gentleman, I will be signing up for my first marathon by the end of the month. The marathon will happen in June and I am really hoping that I will do well. I plan on doing a walk/run. 26.2 miles is no joke!! However, anything is possible if you put your mind to it and really focus.
Anyhoo, I have to be off to work so enjoy your day and embrace life because it is something wonderful. Smile with joy in your heart and be the best you can be.
Signing off,
Robyn
P.S. Wish me luck on an audition I have tonight...
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